Thursday, May 26, 2011

What a week.

This has been a strange week.  It was supposed to be a 3-party week, and it ended up being a no-party week.  I'm a little bummed in that respect.  Let's go back.

So I started the week on Sunday (that's typically how it goes).  Sunday morning I woke up in Louisville at Charity's apartment and got myself ready to leave very quietly as everyone else was still asleep.  I peeled out of the L around 7:30am in order to make it to Evansville at 8:30 (central time).  My drive was OK, until I missed my exit and had to take the next one.  It wasn't horrible tho.  When I got to church, it was Graduation Breakfast time.  Nom nom nom...

After church was over, I went back to my parents' house, applied for a student loan, potted some plants, had my dad vacuum out my car and change my front brakes, and then left for Bloomington.  That night, I had the worst sleep of my life.  I was woken up several times that night by excruciating pain in my back, neck, shoulder and arm.  I've had plenty of back and joint pain throughout my life, but I've never woken up in the middle of the night because of it.  Especially not multiple times.  Finally around 2:30am, I just couldn't take it anymore.  I got out of bed, nearly crying, rummaged through my medicine drawer and found some Advil PM tablets that came as a bonus one time when I bought real Advil.  I read the box.  Sounded perfect, so I took two and drifted back to sleep.

After a full night's sleep, I woke up,still in pain.  I don't really remember what I did on Monday...  I didn't have to work, I didn't clean my apartment, I didn't look at any of the music for this summer, and I didn't go to the Monday Night Live MK meeting.  Oh yeah.  I got my Mary Kay shipment, packaged up everyone's stuff, went to the bank, the post office, and the party store.  Then it stormed.

I was feeling pretty weak and awkward on Tuesday.  Took my temperature and found that I had a small fever.  That explained all my back pain and my chills and weakness.  I was supposed to have a Mary Kay party at my house on Tuesday, but only 3 people RSVP'd - 2 of which had to leave early, and 1 of which was a maybe.  I canceled that party because I wasn't feeling well, and I knew if would have been unsuccessful.  My Thursday party canceled last week, and my Saturday party canceled on Sunday.  Aside from the fact that I get paid by TCC on Friday, this was a no-money week for me.

Yesterday was a mess.  Have you heard about all the storms in Central Indiana?!  Yeah, that was my life yesterday.  I slept in my closet on the floor listening to my boyfriend and two of his coworkers on the radio tracking the storms, tornadoes, and damages.  At 3:50 this morning I decided that since it wasn't raining, and the IU Alert system texted me an All Clear, it was OK to sleep the rest of the night in my bed.

Today I feel OK.  I didn't have a fever last night, but I didn't check it today.  I feel ok, except now I have this sore spot in my throat.  Also I forgot to mention the ugly poison ivy that I have on my arm.  Why am I falling apart?! lol

Here's hoping for a good weekend and an even better next week.

Things that must happen: Copy music, learn music, memorize music; book parties and call contacts; clean my bedroom.  Somebody please hold me to this.

Friday, May 6, 2011

Almost done!

Well friends, today at 12:30pm EST I'll be taking my German Diction final and will conclude my undergraduate degree.  Whoa.  After that, I'm going to go to Hobby Lobby and get some fab decorations for my mortarboard, then tomorrow is GRADUATION!! Can you believe it?!

I get pretty nostalgic and verklempt when I think about graduating.  I'm such a sissy these days.  Even though I'm not going anywhere (I'm starting grad school here in the fall), graduating is a big deal.  I also like to think about how a bunch of people in my family have graduated from IU, and that makes me feel super connected and almost historic. lol

So much has changed in my life since I moved into my dorm freshman year.  I think the core of who I am is the same, but I'm in a very different place now than I was then.  And I love it.  I love the place I'm at right now, and I wouldn't change any of my life experiences for anything!

Here's to the class of 2011!  Congrats, y'all!  We did it!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Love one another.

I'm just not OK with murder.

I never will be.  Taking the life of another human being, no matter how evil, is unacceptable and a despicable act.  The slain of Osama Bin Laden has been "justified" because he was an evil man with a terrorist agenda.  He was responsible for the murder and death of thousands of Americans after the 9/11 attacks, and he has been a looming threat to our nation's security for the last 10 years.  His death prompted a giant sigh of relief from the lungs of America.

But is killing another human being ever really justified?  Is it our place to play God and determine who lives and who dies?  Is it OK to kill one person in hopes of preventing the murder of others?  I just don't know...

My heart is being pulled about 3 different ways regarding this matter.

1.  I'm trying to be rational.  Human, I guess.  The murder of Osama Bin Laden will potentially save lives.  He was evil and needed to be stopped.  I've heard his murder compared to putting down a rabid animal - not an easy job to do, but one that has to be done for the safety of others.
2.  But, Bin Laden was NOT an animal.  He was a human being.  At one point he was some mother's pride and joy.  He was a child of God and someone whom Jesus loved and died for.  With his death, he has now been sentenced to an eternity of suffering in Hell.  I never wish Hell on anyone.  The world is desensitized to the idea of Hell these days, but Hell is serious.  I cannot rejoice over someone being sentenced to Hell - against his own will.  Had he died on his own that day, Hell would have been his sentence, yes.  But that sentence was given to him based on someone else's agenda.
3.  Maybe this is God's way of justice?  God is love, yet God is also just.  Because God is God, I cannot begin to fathom exactly how He works, nor can I predict his next step.  Perhaps this was God's way of achieving justice.  I just don't know.

Rather than dwelling on what happened, I'm trying to think about how I can respond.  There could be so many possible outcomes from the death of Osama Bin Laden.  I am praying for peace.  I am praying that the people of this world stop playing by the rules of "an eye for an eye" and start playing by the rules of love and brotherhood.

You can't overcome evil with evil, but you can change the world with love.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

I believe in second chances.

So, I've been helping a friend out lately with a relationship issue.  I won't get into the details because it's pretty complicated, and it was a result of a lot of misunderstanding.  Basically everyone surrounding her who didn't know all of the minor details has been telling her to just break up with her boyfriend based on 1 particular situation; but after a 6 hour conversation with her, getting down to the root of the issue, where the misunderstanding happened, who is to "blame," and what made the situation blow up into a huge ordeal, we realized 1 thing:  Everyone deserves a second chance.

Our main reasoning for this conclusion was that it is the Christian thing to do.  Imagine if Jesus decided not to give all of us sinners a second (or third, fourth, or fifth) chance... We'd be sunk!  As Christians, we're supposed to live a life that mirrors the life of Jesus.  Jesus built his life on earth based on forgiveness, love, reaching the lost/unpopular/outcasts, and bringing the hope of new life to a world full of people who don't deserve it!  It's not our place to judge others or condemn them.  We should be willing (even though it is HARD) to forgive them and to give them a second chance.

That being said, it's important to guard your heart.  To the world, giving second chances might make you seem weak and like a doormat - letting people walk all over you.  But as Christians, we answer to God.  And God commands forgiveness.  He also commands us to guard our hearts.  Giving a second chance doesn't mean pretending like nothing happened.  That's ignorant.  It means forgiving the person and working with them to cautiously move forward and work to heal the wounds of the past.  My friend has set strict standards for herself and her boyfriend for moving forward so that they can maintain trust and respect with each other.  If those standards get compromised, then in order to guard her heart from being hurt more, she's got to cut it off.  For both of their sakes.

Not everyone may agree with second chances, but in my heart I can't help but give them.  I truly believe that is how Jesus calls us to react when adversity strikes us.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

I love my job!

I love Mary Kay!  I love it so much.  I'm so happy I decided to become an Independent Beauty Consultant, and I can't wait until my business takes off!! I have so much fun playing with skin-care products and makeup, and I love the look on a woman's face when she sees herself as beautiful!

Last night, I went out to dinner with a few friends because my friend Lydia was in town from Hawaii!  She came back to Bloomington for some of her spring break!  She graduated from IU a year and a half ago.  It was SO good to see her!  I miss her like whoa...  It's great to see that's she's living her dream right now - she's working on her Master's in Theater, but she's also performing and teaching all the time!  Way to go, girl! 

After dinner, we were trying to figure out what to do.  There was a bonfire party that we were considering going to, but it was cold, so that didn't really sound appealing to any of us.  We didn't want to go dancing, because there was probably a $5 cover, and none of us really wanted to spend anymore money.  So, I had the genius idea of inviting the girls back to my place for facials!  Can you say impromptu Mary Kay party?!  It was so fun!

Lydia, Jenny, and Liz came back to my place, and I introduced them to the Mary Kay Miracle Set, and we also did the Dash Out the Door look!  The girls looked so fresh and gorgeous!  I was most excited for Liz.  She doesn't wear a lot of makeup, and she's not used to seeing herself that way, but she was really intrigued by the cream eye shadow!  And it looked GREAT on her!  I'm hoping to meet up with her later next week and have a color session! 

Most women don't spend enough time taking extra care of themselves and feeling good about what they see in the mirror.  True beauty starts on the inside, and when your outside matches how you feel, you can conquer the world!  I love providing women the opportunity to pamper themselves for FREE, even if it's only for an hour!  They deserve it!

I don't care what happens in my future.  I just know that Mary Kay is something that I want to bring along with me wherever I end up.  This is the best job I've ever had! :-)

Friday, March 18, 2011

March 18, 2011

My, oh my how time slips away!  It's been far too long since my last blog, and sadly, I see this becoming a trend.  Hopefully I can nip this in the bud pretty soon and get back on my blogging horse! What have I been up to...

Faust is over. It was a great run! I had so much fun being in the show, and I especially enjoyed the girl time in the chorus dressing room! We all looked so goofy in our 1930s wigs and our drag queen makeup... But we loved every minute of it! (If you don't count the headaches and the itchy scalps from the wigs!)

My senior recital is Sunday. Ahh!! This semester is almost, over.  I'm about to graduate with a bachelors degree in Vocal Performance, and I still don't know what I want to do with my life! lol I mean, yeah, I want to sing. But exactly how I want that part in my life, I'm not quite sure.  Thank goodness God gave me a "go with the flow" kind of attitude.  I'm really open to whichever direction His will sends me!  I'm blessed because I got accepted into a summer opera program in San Francisco for a month this summer!  It's the Bay Area Summer Opera Theater Institute program.  And I got a role in a full production opera!  That's so great!  Hopefully this will be one of those life-changing summers where I either realize that I can't live without opera or that it's really just not for me.  I DO love it, though.  We'll just see what happens!  I auditioned for IU grad school for a Master of Music, but I haven't heard back yet.  I have a hunch that I didn't get in - it's REALLY  competitive.  But, you never know till you know!  So, until I hear the official word, one way or the other, my future is still undecided.  If I get in, then great! I'll be in school for the next couple years.  (Wait. That IS great, right?...)  If I don't get in, then I'll work, make a little money, continue taking lessons, pray a LOT, and try to figure out what that next big step is!  I'm not really worried.  Either way, my life is in God's hands - and I'll always be able to sing.  Singing is what brings me joy.  Not necessarily all the other stuff that surrounds it.  It's comforting to know that the creator of the world holds my future in His hands and that I really don't have to worry about every little tiny step I take.  As long as I'm seeking Christ, and living my life to be like Him and to serve His people, then I'm doing the right thing!

Speaking of serving people, I've just begun a new part-time career (YES! A career - something that I can work at for the rest of my life, that I enjoy, and that I can take with me wherever I go!) with Mary Kay Inc. as an Independent Beauty Consultant!  I am the MOST excited about this opportunity!  I don't think of it as a job (sure, the money will be nice), but I think of it more as a way to reach women, to communicate with them, empower them, and build their self-esteem!  Mary Kay is not just about lipstick!  It's about growing as an individual, putting your faith first, and taking care of our bodies!  I am learning so much already, and I've only technically been a consultant for about a week now!  I am so lucky to have Paula Kirkpatrick as my Sales Director.  I know Paula through church camp - from counseling her girls at camp and having her parents as the camp managers for several years!  Paula is a woman after God's own heart, and she truly uses her Mary Kay "job" as a ministry.  That is where I want my business to go.  I don't want it to be about me, or the makeup, or the profit, but I want it to be about changing lives and bringing women together through the Holy Spirit.  But I do love the makeup and the parties :-)  I am SUCH a girlie-girl!

I think that's enough for today.  Please pray for me!  Pray for my ministry through Mary Kay, pray that God will lead my steps and determine my future and give me peace of mind, and pray that my recital will be fulfilling on Sunday!  Thanks for reading!

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Happy February

Well, it's officially been 1 month since I've blogged. Woopsies! Where has the time gone?!  I guess I'll do a little updating.

Big fat losers...

I'm playing a real-life version of Biggest Loser with some of my friends and family! It's been going pretty well, so far!  I've lost 5lbs with pretty little effort.  We're going based on % lost since everyone is starting at different weights.  We weigh in on Fridays, and it's $2 per person per week ($3 if you gain that week!) for 17 weeks, and the winner (or loser, if you will) wins all the money!!  So far, Marly is kicking everyone's butts! She's awesome!  She's lost like 10 lbs in the past month.  I'm so proud of her!  (I'm a wee bit jealous, too, but I'm mostly just proud of my best friend!)

I've been keeping track of my daily caloric intake and exercise with a website called Lose It!.  It's also an iPhone app, but I don't got no monies for fancy phones like that.  This website is great!  You can have friends on there like Facebook, and you can keep each other accountable and check each other's progress.  It's really fun, and it's really helping me lose weight just by giving me a visual image of what I put into my body and what exercises I do to burn calories.  If you want help losing weight, this is a great site to get started with!

"Je ne veux pas valser"...


I'm in the opera chorus for Faust this semester.  It's been going really great!  We had all of our musical rehearsals last semester, and now we've been doing staging rehearsals.  I love it very much.  It makes me miss being in theater back in high school, and it makes me really excited for a possible career in opera :-)  My friend Rachel got one of the leads, and I'm so proud of her!  She's singing the role of Siebel (a teenage boy), and she's rocking it out!  I can't wait till we get to dress rehearsals so I can see her do more! 

My favorite scene that we've staged so far is the waltz scene because... well, we get to waltz.  That should have been pretty self explanatory. lol  My waltz partner is great, and we have a lot of fun dancing!  Also, I get to have my little moment on the front of the stage with Siebel trying to get him to waltz with me.  But he's a chicken (see this section's title).  I'm excited to see what our costumes are for this production.  It's a new production, and it's set in the 20s in Germany.  Hopefully I get to be pretty ;-)

She works hard for the money...

I've applied for the administrative assistant position at the job I currently work for.  I've been wanting to do this job for a while now, but up until this point, I've never had a class schedule that would allow me to work during day shifts.  I've been trying to get an interview, but that has been difficult.  We had Icepocalypse 2011 this week, which postponed my originally scheduled interview, then I submitted my availability for the next few days, then I was given an interview time that did not fit my availability, and now I've again submitted my availability for the next week.  HOPEFULLY something will work out, and they'll be able to squeeze me in for an interview.  I'm not sure if any of my other coworkers applied for the job, but I do feel like I am qualified for it and that the administrators would benefit from my assistance. :-D 

Cross your fingers that an interview time works out and that I get this job!  The pay is the same, but the job is very different - more along the lines of something I could actually use in my future.  (In case you didn't realize, I have no desire to be any kind of technology consultant... like, ever... even tho I'm kind of good at it.)

Icepocalypse 2011...


As I mentioned before, we experienced Icepocalypse 2011 in the midwest this past week.  It was tragic.  Everything - I mean, everything - was covered in about a quarter inch of solid ice.  Made walking, driving, scraping your car, EVERYTHING really difficult.  IU classes got canceled for about a day, which should tell you something.

Yesterday we had a pretty nice day.  It was cold, but it wasn't freezing.  Most of the ice was melted.  Except, however, there was some black ice behind my car yesterday morning as I was headed to my first class, and ZIIING!  I wiped out.  Pretty hard, too.  Day one of Icepocalypse 2011 I wiped out, too, but it was just funny and not painful.  Yesterday's wipeout was a little more tragic.  The first time I had my hands full, so I just fell straight down.  Yesterday my hands were free, so of course out of instinct, I tried to brace myself and ended up with really sore, asphalt-filled hands. :-(  And also 2 people saw me and asked if I was ok.  I was.  It did give me an opportunity to bond with a girl who had also fallen twice. lol Good times.

This kind of phrase was pretty common this week, "I walked out of my apartment, fell twice, turned around and went back inside.  No way am I going to class/work."  I don't blame them. 

It's currently blizzarding outside.  Awesome. #sarcasm

Is it summer yet?